Start a Good Dream and Goal on Mooncake Festive !

Today is Mooncake Festive, but I am having class today which I not able to go back early to have dinner with my beloved family. Wishing all Happy Mooncake Festive and may each and everyone have a wonderful, peaceful and blissful celebration with your family. 

I have also finally made a decision that I will train myself to be more calm and not so bad tempered. I need to ensure I am working professionally. No point making myself look bad because at the end of the day, it will look bad on me. 

I am seriously feeling very exhausted. Therefore, today onward, I promise myself, i will live very positively. Is going to take time but I am going to try very hard to ensure my life is happy. Why should I bother because in corporate society, nothing is fair. Like it or not, there will be no changes. So, why be sad about unnecessary situations. 

I always remind myself that money is very important, but my positive life and healthy life is also very important because life is too short for me to worried  when the right person is not even worrying about it. Why should I make myself sad, angry and unhappy where it will effect a nice day with my love one. Is  seriously not worth it at all. 

Anyway Happy Mooncake Festive Everyone.. 

Searching For Right Career Path..

I always like to ask this question when I feel frustrated; "Why should I be bothered if my manager is not even bothering or concerning about this matter". I am seriously hunger with knowledge now. I need a good leader to lead me how to do a proper and professional job. Currently I am seriously very lost and always searching for right answer. 

I feel so tired and demotivated with my work. I feel like i am not learning and not progressing at all. I always feel like lost kid running around searching for directions. I seriously very curious how those people who always sit down and do nothing everyday survive. Aren't they feel useless and hopeless for not doing anything each day. Even worst, those who are not doing anything but always rewarded with good increment and bonus is the one making me more demotivated. 

What I have to do now is to work harder to keep on searching the right path for my career, because I don't want to be ending up with regret that I have waste my life time on doing nothing. Life is short. I am telling myself not to distress myself on unnecessary people, just keep silent and keep on searching for my career path. If the company is not appreciating me, I will have to appreciate myself by doing things which benefit myself. 

-Never Waste Time On Unnecessary Problem Because Is Not Worth It- 

Cruel Corporate World

I start to realise that corporate world seriously is not for me. Everything is very realistic and everybody is talking about money and own benefit. My manager asked me not to be so naive and don't trust what other people says every time. Seriously, I feel very very exhausted because I hate to shut people down. 

I love what I'm doing but in the same time I hate what I am doing because I feel that I am cheating people. Everybody is talking about benefit, money and how to negotiate to get more money. I'm not saying is bad, this is business, this is how we earn more money but maybe is just now for me. 

I will say I love my part of my job, another part of my job I hate it to the max because I just feel like I'm conning other people. This is business world, everybody only care about themselves. 

Money is very important but how if everyday I feel uncomfortable with what I am doing. Should I continue? I am confuse now. I love my job but I hate it in the same time.

-My feeling is very complicated now-

Working in Collaboration Environment

Recently everyone is talking about collaboration working environment. It is so easy to tell people to work collaboratively but it is not easy to apply it instantly. Everyone can shout out saying "lets work together!!" but does it work? I seriously don't know.

I just feel that now a days, everyone is fighting with each other for own benefit. Everyone is blaming each other to cover themselves. Everyone is quoting individual person names instead of saying "WE/OUR". Instead of working together they have total sub a task to another team and when things screw up they pointing fault on the team. Is seriously very demotivate when you are working in this kind of environment.

How do you feel when 1 day a manager tells you where you are just at an executive level "hey, i will inform the management that you asked me to do this". Do you feel stupid working with this manager? Is the manager telling me that I have the right to instruct him to do the task?

One of my senior management always tell me "please think first before you do. Always ask yourself is this decision correct, can it be proceed, what are the pros and cons, always ask why". But sometimes I feel that why are people working blindly. They always say just follow the instructions. Why can't I asked for more details?

I am trying not to make myself ended up like a useless manager but, when you start seeking for more details, some managers will feel offended and they will feel being threaten. OMG!! I feel so frustrated.

Where is the collaboration practice if everyone is just following blindly without discussion and everyone is blamming each other once things screwed up. What is more sad if things being screwed up, in my opinion, we should solved the problem together, but mostly people will find out who should be blamed. Why must be blame each other and complaint about each other.

So, how and where is the collaborative culture? Searching.. searching..

Life Is Too Short To Be Waste

Was shocked when I heard that my uncle pass away on 23rd June 2014. The news come too sudden that I feel so unbelievable. How can a person life being so unpredictable. Today he is fine, tomorrow he is gone. We will not be able to see him again. We will not get to talk to him again. It strike my mind that, I thank God, thank God for still protecting my family. I will appreciate the moment with them.

Why should we kill each other in order to climb higher and by using all the dirty trick, you start to create enemy and everyone start to hate you and avoiding you and hope that you will disappear from their life. Life being hate by others is really bad. What a life.

That is the reason why I always choose to have a simple life. Simple and peaceful life. I believe with simple and peaceful life will lead me to more happy and clean life. I know in this society everything is very realistic, what people always say is "No Money, No Talk! Got Money, Sweet Talk". So, if I need money, I earn it with my handwork. A clean money with my clean heart.

I always tell myself not to be greedy. The only request I asked from God is please let my family to be healthy and let me have a happy family till the end I end my breath in this world.

Life cycle

Negative World, Negative Society, Negative Environment

I always have been wondering, why are people killing each other for own benefit. Why are people bad mouthing other people to get credit for their own. Why can't everybody help each other and live in a harmony and quite life. Why must they create all this negative environment. The worst part is, own family members is the one creating the negative surrounding. I not sure is it my problem , but I always believe we have to do the right thing and be responsible with what we are doing.

Am I too naive? When I have done something, I never ask for a return or a credit. What I want is to see the other party  is happy and satisfied with my work. In office environment, people always like to chase for credit from bosses and always tried to show bosses that they are doing their job. Worst case, they will start to bad mouth other colleagues in order to get credit from bosses. Some people  always tell me "Hey, present your work to management, show them you are doing work". Sorry to say, I never want to do that, because I always believe, I don't have to show my bosses I am doing my work intentionally! If the bosses are a good leader, they can feel it. If the bosses don't trust me, I have no choice, is their mindset, I can't force bosses to believe and trust me. As long as my heart is clean and I do my job with my sincere heart, good leader will found me and will allow me to go further. Some people say I am too naive, however, I do still believe, good leader will found me if I continue doing good. I believe God will always protect me from negative people.

In family environment, sorry to say, just like the story line in the Taiwan TV drama, everyone is killing each other to get the benefit. Worst part is, they start to bad mouth own family members to obtain sympathy in order to win their dirty game. I always believe, what goes around comes around. What ever they have done, it will effect on them in near future. It might not happen now, but I strongly believe, it will happen in their next generations. They will have to pay back what ever they have done.

Sometimes, I do always ask myself, why don't I do it as well, since everyone is doing it, but, I thank God, who I always believe they are around me telling me not to follow the bad steps. Always remember what goes around comes around.

 

 

Completed another marathon run

Finally completed another year of Brunsfield marathon run. Last year I got 10th place, this year 9th place. Improving.

I never like sport when I was young. I never thought of one day I will love running. I start running or exercising since 2 years ago. I love the feeling while running with my music on. It makes me feel nice, relax, and in another world without worries.

Like I always said, I prefered a simple life. Running makes me feel simple and fun. In the same time makes me healthy too. Got a certificate of achievement..