Working at HQ today because there was a meeting at 12pm. Meeting ended early but I have requested my superior to allow me to work at HQ because by travelling back to my office will take me an hour. So working in a big meeting room alone with music.
Went out late lunch to avoid unnecessary explanation why I'm here. Then only realised senior management was having lunch meeting in one of the office. Then I meet up with one of my senior where she came out with tired face and also her uniform is slightly wet. It reminds me of myself 5 years back before I join this new department.
I use to feel tired and useless when I work at the previous department. Everyday you are doing the same task. I don't see myself in achieving anything at all. Everyday at work, I will be complaining non stop and management start to dislike me because of my complain and they start to think I am spreading rumours.
I can remember clearly how I hate my work and how I hate myself. I don't see any future of myself at all. Every year I requested to change department, but each time the answer will be the same which is "have to wait for new recruit to replace your position". Patiently I waited for 4 years.
At the 4th years, I cannot take it anymore, I went to to my Human Resource Department and told them if I am not allow to transfer I will have to move on. Thank god, there is one vacancy during my request and there is how I manage to come out to lease marketing department.
Went through lots of challenges at the beginning, but I tell myself I can do it. No matter what happen as long as I stick with my principle I believe I can do it and here I am, doing more meaningful task and manage to list down my achievement. I can talk confidently about my jobscope and I can see myself thinking most of the time in improving my skill. I feel very lucky that I choose to voice out and go after what I want.
I guess God love those who take initiative. Amitabha..